3rd 1/2 completed...still bad knee

So I finished my 3rd 1/2. I didn't do it in the time I wanted but I did miss two weeks of training because of my bad knee.

I actually finished at: 1:53:54.2. It was less than a minute from my previous finish time. I was disappointed at first but then I cramped up and couldn't walk for a good five minutes. I was crying like a little girl on the ground.  It was pretty embarrassing I am sure you saw me if you were at Bank Scotia 1/2 marathon in Montreal. I guess I am just happy that I finished that race because my knee was hurting  like" h-e-double hockey sticks".

The thing is that I haven't been running seen that race. It's been a month. My knee has been killing me. I tried to do a two mile yesterday to test it and my knee was killing me today. 

I am truly sad that I am unable to run so far and I am afraid that it might be a long time 'til I run again. I know that I should rest the knee because if I run on it and it's not heal I might not be able to run ever again and that thought really saddens me. I love to run and I would miss it dearly if I couldn't run. I would feel that a part of me have been taking away.

So you see why I haven't written in awhile.

Kat